I was the first of all my friends to get married, and then the first to have a baby. Over time, I noticed people stopped reaching out and every conversation was one that I started. I became extremely hurt by this, and started to feel a grudge against these friends for not initiating. I now realize how difficult it might have been for them to speak with me when it seemed like I got the things they were davening and waiting for so quickly and easily. I pledge to happily start conversations with them and continue davening for their yeshuos