I was thirteen years old and my friends and I decided that we were going to go to the old age home friday night to sing kabalas shabbos to the ladies while the men were in shul. the singing went great and we all felt really good about the chesed we had just done. As we were walking home one of my close friends who lives around the corner from me invited a few of us girls over.I automatically assumed that I was invited because we hung out all the time,but when I got to her house she gave me a look like ”all right i’ll be nice and let you in”.I was really confused but decided not to think anything of it. When I came into her den where we were chilling everything seemed the usual ,but there were a few new girls there who we werent friends with which was fine cuz i love making new friends we hung out for about an hour with games and muddy buddies and had fun.I went to the bathroom and when i got back they were all talking and then went silent when they saw me. We had all planned to walk to another girls house for our grade shalosh seudos but when I mentioned we should probably leave so we could be there on time one girl said then leave yourself another two ran off to the backyard and and another two said they urgently need to go home and daven(why couldn’t they daven in the house we were in?).Anyways we finally left and as we were walking four girls ran across the street away from the rest of us.we got to the shalosh seudos about 25 minutes late so most of our grade was done eating and went to hang out in the backyard.i stayed around with afew girls in my grade and grabbed something to eat. when i got to the backyard my friends who we usually shared everything with each other were saying secrets so i went over to them and they turned theyr’e backs to me.A different girl threw a basketball at me and another said she really didn’t like my dress I would have walked home but it was a far walk and it was getting dark. so most of us went to a girl who lived nearbys house. thruout the rest of shabbos things like the above mentioned kept happening and when I stood up for myself they would just laugh and keep going. I was dying inside.when shabbos ended we called another one of our friends who went home earlier, but the girl calling decided we should all be quiet and she will pretend shes alone. so we were all quiet and my friend called my other friend and put the call on speaker on our side of the conversation and asked: ”what was with the weird dynamics today?!” and i remember the girl on the other line said:”oh nothing we were just trying to get away from shaindy”.And at that moment it all clicked and I hated myself for giving them the benefit of the doubt because there were 12 faces staring at me then and only 3 girls apologized and until i came onto the website today i really resented everyone of those 12 girls. It has been many years since this story happened and I don’t think a day went by where the trauma didn’t haunt me and the pain didn’t hurt me because i lost 12 friends on that day and 9 of them spread rumors about me that followed me to camp and jeopardized my ability to make new friends.I lost my trust in many people and became very numb but now I forgive them and hope they have bracha in their lives.Thank you for showing me that forgiveness is possible.