I need to make sholom with myself! For years I’ve been very self critical and am always putting myself down and comparing myself to others. I find it much easier to judge others positively than myself. As you can imagine it doesn’t do much for my self esteem and simchas hachaim. It’s hard because I really believe that I’m less than especially in the spiritual realm. I think the fact that we don’t have children makes me question my self worth, and how can I be on par to mothers who are bringing up the next generation. I bli neder want to work on accepting Hashems will for me and believing in His goodness and that I must have some important tafkid even though it’s hidden and very different than most women have.